Back where I started

I watched a show on how the brain works and I wanted so badly to study the brain, so I'll likely use my new free time to study, i desire again to go back to school. It honestly fascinates me and captures my undivided attention, much like SCUBA and even Music has, I want to understand how electricity is used to generate morality, supposedly everything has building blocks or common denominators, I always seek them out and try to understand from that point. I want to be an expert in my field. I wrote many such letters to various colleges on various areas of study, but this is the only one that I constantly return to with as much intended vigor if not more than before. In a letter I wrote to the admissions office somewhere in Texas, I told the story of my friend, David, who once used electrical current to "super charge" his hand to see if he could break a test tube. Such things fascinate me, and my best friend now sent me another pertinent article on how the brain functions. And I love reading textx as much as fiction when it is about Neuroscience. Maybe that is what I am supposed to be working on. I do not want my time or skill to have been in vain. But, I turn to Enlish literature, Law, or Journalism, though I admit Anthropology and history fascinate me more as does linguistics or code breaking. I think that so far there is no Dark side to the study of the brain. I would like to understand fully each lobe and function, and I see no reason why I shouldn't. I wish I would have persued this years ago when I decided to!!!

Note to self: Please reread this and rejuvenate your desire to comprehend, because you can succeed. Even your "failures" lead you to this. You'll be back here again, if you don't do it right, Remember what Erickson taught? BINGO!

NWO

Now, I might need to lead your hand a little because much of what she is saying and I am hearing will not be assumed by many of you, but I find this very fascinating.

First I need to find another quote to say more consisely what I'm thinking.
I cannot find it, but it is a scene where Debra Winger says that that's what you were either a communst or an atheist. I think. I only remember the sentiment, not the lines... What I was hoping to do is get you to think about how Communisim is very closely related to religion and I have personally always thought in secret that Communisim is a god idea and if men had the ability to live it properly thing would work out. But, I think still what I wrote in my paper way back in high school is still true, that "A more perfect union would be a theism."

After being on that track it is not a far jump to wonder if there wasn't some truth mixed up in that pile of obvious lies told by other "christian" objectors to Mormonism, that they brainwash people. I believe my mind is stronger because of the truths that I have accepted and learned to live. But, I just had to stop and think about War and brain washing, that assumes that the people had a reason to think one way already and they were (not physically forced) lead to choose a choice that another mind picked for them, isn't that what all religion does? Accept that God knows best. And how do you know what god wants? The scriptures. Wh wrote the scriptures? Propagandists? no. Prophets.I cannot recall the exact quote from Amoa but it says that God doesn't do anything that he doesn't first reveal to his servants the prophets.

Now, How do you know that I really evn wrote this? Usually, it is by my tone, you can sense the same in scripture, and know of it's veracity because it is sort of recognizable and comfortable, but Elke says the same things about growing up in Eastern Germany, We accept strange things as fact when that is what we are accustomed to, like the frog in a boiling pot of water, he'd jump out if it was noticeably too hot, but the incremental change is an acceptible one.

Sunday

Ok, so, again, I found a way to weasel arund things. The idea is that I rest on Sunday, so I wrote a churchy song because it is just too addictive to not write anything. Composing is mydrug, so to speak, that and making videos (that's how I compensate for my lost vocal talent with the brain infection).

Brandall's song

More stuff from my exhusband.

I don't really like this song, but...

THIS GUY IS GOOD!!!!! I laughed to think that he was probably in diapers when this song was popular, but resurgance is not an unknown phenomenon.